When I need to go to "my happy place"... I really go there!

When I need to go to "my happy place"... I really go there!

Friday, February 19, 2010

American Health Care "TBTF"?

      A good friend of mine just observed the two year anniversary of his open heart surgery with dutiful appreciations to his surgeons. I too am grateful for his successful surgery and continuing health and presence among us; he is a good friend with whom I shared, among other experiences, many delicious meals and refreshing beverages. Yet my friend's "good outcome" reminds me of far too many "negative outcomes". I work in a nationally recognized hospital and in spite of highly trained specialists, new equipment, new ICUs, new diagnostic scanners and so forth, I spend most of my time with patients highly anxious about their health, family members worried about their loved ones, and staff heroically caring for patients while operating in a health care system badly in need of reform. Immersed in the massive environment and campus of my hospital, a troubling thought often percolates to the surface. Could it be that our American "health care system" is actually an entity more "TBTF" (too big to fail) than some of the financial institutions bailed out by our government in the recent financial upheaval which is still sending tremors through our economy?
      Sadly, most of the so-called debate I hear and read about regarding health care reform is of the most pedantic and polarizing of political partisanship. Most of what I hear and read is shrill and vitriolic, far from thoughtful and civil. If those elected "public servants" and public personalities so opposed to reform, who happen to have quality insurance and financial resources, would spend the night with me in our Emergency Room or in the Operating Room waiting area or on the floor for Labor & Delivery, I believe they might have a change of perspective, if not a change of heart.
       As the sun rises, I walk to the parking garage by way of the ten story out patient treatment tower adjacent to the Eye Institute and the Children's Hospital. It sometimes feels as if my hospital is "TBTF", is impersonal, too concerned with ever shifting bottom lines. If my hospital environment can feel that way, how about the entire health care system in our country. I feel like a tiny piece in a complicated puzzle. Yet I hear far too little from local physicians and hospital administrators and nurse managers, chaplains and others about health care reform.
      I have been reading, in addition to the "less than all the news fit to print" on this subject, three books entitled And a Time to Die: How American Hospitals Shape the End of Life by Sharon R. Kaufman
Living Well and Dying Faithfully: Christian Practices for End-of-Life Care by John Swinton, Richard Payne, and Stanley Hauerwas, and Accompany Them with Singing--The Christian Funeral by Thomas G. Long. When I started them, I wasn't consciously thinking of the first dealing with end of life, the second with dying, and the third with the funeral but they have turned out to be an interesting constellation of viewpoints on issues that I deal with on an almost daily basis.  I wish I could report that the insights imparted from them have been revelatory and life-changing. They haven't been; at least not yet. However, the books have provided a tremendous amount of food for thought and reflection. Depending on what one does with the majority of one's working day, I recommend at least one of these books to you. 
      I continue to struggle and be disappointed with the health care reform debate in our country. I believe we can do better. In a blog dated February 12, 2010 entitled Frozen Reform, Robert D. Francis writes: "The federal government finally reopened today after four days closed due to record snowfall in the DC area. As for health-care reform, it’s seemed frozen since Scott Brown was elected to the Senate last month." It doesn't have all the answers, but at least it's a thoughtful attempt at addressing the "TBTF" elephant in the room. Follow this to rest of blog: http://theolog.org/2010/02/frozen-reform.html.
      If our health care system is "TBTF", what are we going to do? Run back into our burrows like Punxsutawney Phil and hide? Let those with other agendas make decisions in their best interest, not the interests of patients and taxpayers? I hope the spring thaw arrives soon; Lord, real soon.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Massive Star Blows Fancy Hourglass Nebula


I love these pictures. Words seem inadequate; but that is why we have poets:

A Clear Midnight
Walt Whitman

This is thy hour O Soul, thy free flight into the wordless,
Away from books, away from art, the day erased, the lesson done,
Thee fully forth emerging, silent, gazing, pondering the themes thou
    lovest best,
Night, sleep, death and the stars.


Friday, February 5, 2010

Another Night Poem

The Want of Peace

by Wendell Berry 

All goes back to the earth,   
and so I do not desire
pride of excess or power,   
but the contentments made   
by men who have had little:   
the fisherman’s silence
receiving the river’s grace,
the gardener’s musing on rows.

I lack the peace of simple things.   
I am never wholly in place.
I find no peace or grace.
We sell the world to buy fire,
our way lighted by burning men,   
and that has bent my mind
and made me think of darkness
and wish for the dumb life of roots.

Wendell Berry, “The Want of Peace” from The Selected Poems of Wendell Berry. Copyright © 1998.

Monday, February 1, 2010

The Feast of St. Brigid of Kildare

There are a lot of things about the "South" that cause me to pause but one aspect that I have experienced and try to emulate is the notion of Southern hospitality. I confess that we Protestants, especially ones in the South, have been a bit impoverished by our lack of knowledge, understanding, and appreciation for the saints of the church, particularly female ones. One source that has helped me in this is Jan Richardson's "The Painted Prayerbook". I commend to you her thoughts on St. Brigid in a meditation entitled "A Habit of Wildest Bounty" at http://paintedprayerbook.com/2009/01/31/a-habit-of-the-wildest-bounty-the-feast-of-st-brigid/